A Letter To My Mother....... Happy Mother's Day!!!!
Jazmin Elaine
May 8, 2021
Hey Ma,
Happy Heavenly Mother’s Day!! I miss you so much. What do you do all day up there? Do they play Bingo in heaven? If they do, are your parents watching your numbers the way you used to watch mine? I laugh at all the crazy things you would do or say, you had no filter and I know where I get it from. I wish we could go to McDonald’s one more time just to hear you order “A Filet-O-Fish ketchup only, and a Sweet Tea with EXTRA EXTRA ice”. You would sip your tea and then complain about them not putting enough ice in your sweet tea or even say the tea wasn’t sweet enough. Remember how I always thought mine was sweet enough? You would tell me to “Go to hell” and make me take yours back. Eventually, you wouldn’t let me pull away from the drive-thru window unless it was up to your standards. Ma, if you wanted to drink syrup just say that! I always wonder what you would think about my blog but I’m sure the first thing you would tell me to do would be to “Get my picture off the internet” ……..NOPE! I’m so thankful for the times we’ve spent together especially towards the end. I will cherish those moments for the rest of my life. You made sure that I knew how much you loved me and how proud of me that you were. You let me know that God will show me the way and that is where my help comes from. Somedays I don’t feel too good about myself and your words give me strength and encouragement. When I feel like I can’t go on any longer, you visit me in my dreams. I remember one dream specifically; you came to The Nap House and I just crawled over to you and cried in your lap. There is truly no love like a mother’s love and just being able to see you meant everything to me even if it was only in my dreams. Speaking of The Nap House, can you believe I’ve been here for a whole year? By MYSELF?!?!??!? Now you know I never wanted to live alone! If I could have it my way, I would still be with you taking naps and watching movies.
I hate that you’re not here! So much has happened since you’ve been gone. I miss calling you and telling you all the “tea” that’s going on in my life. I miss asking you questions and you getting annoyed when I start asking too many. Momma, you were my girl!!!! I remember as a kid I would stay up until midnight waiting for you to get home just so we could eat oodles of noodles together. I always looked forward to the Tv dinners you would make us before you went to Bingo. I always felt extra special because you would always give me your mashed potatoes and corn and then would put a little butter in it for a little razzle-dazzle you know. When you did cook you never made a complete meal. You would either make some kind of meat or you would just make a side. I remember how on the weekends you would make a big pot of spaghetti and everyone would come over with their Tupperware ready to take some home.
There’s so much that I have yet to experience in life and it saddens me that you won’t be here for it. For example, Motherhood…… I was looking forward to hearing you fuss and tell me to "Come get my kids!" In all seriousness, it breaks my heart that my future children won’t be able to share the same memories with you as your other grandchildren did. It’s a scary feeling knowing that I have to continue to live life and experience things without you but I’m confident that you’ve prepared me for whatever life throws at me. I’m thankful for Dad, he’s not as good when it comes to the “tea” but he’s doing the best that he can. I’m thankful for Keesha, she volunteered to be the Grandmother to Kendra and I’s children so I think we should be ok. Your friends always reach out and check on us. So many people love you and because of the love they have for you, it trickles down to your children……….
I love you more than words can express, continue to watch over us
Love,
-Jazzy Boo
We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body and to be present with the Lord. -2 Corinthians 5:8
